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We started out as that couple that was inseparable that thought we would last forever… college came though and tore us apart. Ever since we’ve been on a roller coaster of ups and downs and what are we’s. A couple months ago you really came back into my life and I thought I had found love… i thought…. i thought of lot of things but… i thought. Now, I’m thinking that what i thought was more was hope than anything. I just really can’t see us being in a relationship again and i feel like that’s what you want. I really don’t want to lead you astray if that’s what you’re hoping for. I want to tell you in so many words that I still want you in my life but I just don’t see us being “us” anymore. 

I went from being that young, innocent, naive, lovestruck teenager… to that annoyed, bothered, angry, broken hearted college student… to a more reserved, patient, cautious young woman that is still growing and learning everyday. I see you being in my life…. but i’ve grown… i’ve grown apart from you and what you want. I can’t let you dictate when I can and can’t like you… i’ve let that happen too long. When I want you, you don’t want me. When you want me, I don’t want you… oh and that occasional middle when we both feel the same way. It’s tiring to feel like that and I just don’t know if I can be that girl anymore.

That girl that would do anything for you, that girl that would love you, that girl that had hopes and dreams that we would be forever together, that girl… that girl is long gone… she’s grown up… she’s learned…. she’s experienced…. she’s….. she’s new and you don’t know that new girl. You don’t seem to want to get to know her either. You’re more focused on you and what YOU want… and you’re not asking me what I want. You’re more focused on what we WERE instead of what we ARE…. more focused on the past instead of the present… focused on what we COULD be if there were this, that, these, and those circumstances…. when I’m not. I’m focusing on the road ahead, those that are in my life now, and who i can trust, depend, and lean on in

When there’s no info on wikipedia about your assignment

college-probs:

fuck this shit:

what now?

society: Everyone's beautiful.
society: Don't eat though, you don't want to get fat.
society: You don't eat? Anorexic freak!
society: You're a size 4? You're supposed to be a size 0!
society: You're an A cup? What are you, 8?
society: You're a C cup? That's my mums size.
society: You had sex?! Slut!
society: You haven't had sex? Hah, you're frigid!
society: You don't think you're pretty? Attention seeker!
society: You think you're pretty? Conceited much?
society: You believe in gay rights? Homo!
society: You don't believe in gay rights? Homophobic dickhead!
society: You're depressed? Attention seeker!
society: You cut yourself? Still attention seeking!
society: You can't go on? How much attention do you want?!
person: -kills themself-
society: Oh, they were so beautiful! Society sucks!

So done….

I’m done trying to “be your friend.” Even though you’re almost 3 years older then me I guess your maturity level is still way below mine. When I see that you’re making a effort I’ll reconsider this friendship again… Until then, see ya best friend.